Joy to the World

Weird adjustment to the kids not being home. Summer abruptly over just when you thought you were going to strangle yourself. Then two days later, I miss all the arguing all day. Even though the morning stretches out wide like a snowy Mississippi River.

Morning time I can get everything done because it's just Lilly. After two o'clock it becomes like a horror movie - I can't get anything done because my feet seem to be clogged with molassas, there's noise and I can't cook because I hate it. But I cook anyway.

Tonight we went on a walk last thing and the kids climbed up a huge pile of sand up on the mountain. Covered in dust, rolling down the sand mountain on their stomachs. Dogs running up the hill like the finish line was right at the top. Sun setting.

It's a beautiful thing, this world where everything changes no matter what door you slam to try and stop it. On Monday, school started, and the cat had 6 kittens at the same exact time. Of course.

In a few months it will be Thanksgiving, the cat will get fixed, and summer will be this weird past thing we barely remember.

I'll try to hang on to Lilly swinging on the swing in the front yard tonight, in her 3 year old joy to the world, hanging her head back and saying "I'm catching the wind with my mouth."